Saturday, September 12, 2015

:: sHakEspeAre ::

Assalamualaikum wbt...

Long time eh? LoL... sorry dear blog.. been so lost in few months tho....

Shakespeare said, Love is sweet bitter. But for me, the definition of love mean Allah's bless...

When u get hurt, u gonna seek His help...
When u so happy, u gonna thank Him a lots...

n that's describe me...

I didnt know how it feel to lost someone i love so much until Allah took 2 people from me... during I was know nothing, n back in last year when I feel most everything....

The hardship, the beautiful moments... n it hurt....like soooo dammmmnnnn much...

but u know what, He paid it back.. giving our family not only one new person.. but two. adding my collection of listed Nanny-baby sitter relationship.... LoL...

so, back to that hurt stuff....It did depressed me so much. Lost a father who is ur everything is not an easy situation. That's not included all isu2 berbangkit of family matters knock u down.

The good thing is, u have a loyal n understanding bestfriends. They r the one who somehow reduce the pain a bit.

n to miss someone who is not in this world is tough. Like u miss his advices, his kisses n hugs n the nags too... Seriously, I'm not used in the first month. Cry almost everyday... Lost, cannot be alone, sleep alone or do nothing... bcoz u tend to start crying n missing him like crazy.

crying in a sleep, during prayer, telling ppl story about him and anything related. Even seeing an old folks on street on inside TV also cause u to have a teary eyes.

but Allah is the best planner. Once u  start redha n tawakal.. He gonna ease the hurt one by one... n replacing it with anything better. Just remember that, a teacher is always quiet during a test.

Hoping for the best tho. May Allah ease this feeling...

piGiEbeNg nAk bAyar uTaNg piTipiTipU